Ellie Kate… A Tiny Miracle

In Spring of 2012 I met Ashley Robertson… After boldly asking if I was going to “finish my dinner,” she quickly became one of my closest friends…

Now, after four years… Her marriage, the death my dad, the birth of their daughter, and a few trips to see each other on opposite sides of the country… I find myself asking Ashley questions about motherhood and the incredible way Ellie Kate helped save her life…

Though she never liked doctors very much, last summer Ashley found herself at the gynecologist for the first time… Confirming the news… She was in fact pregnant…

A few days after the appointment she received a call that some abnormal cells needed a closer look… Of course, this scared her to death because she was pregnant and didn’t know what this would mean for the health of herself and the baby…

After praying and deciding not to worry about it, the doctor gave her good news… The pre-cancerous cells didn’t need to be removed immediately… She could carry the baby full-term and then they would go in and remove them after birth…

Ellie1Again, she prayed and left the situation alone…

On April 7, all of the last minute trips to the store ended when Ellie Kate Robertson was
born… Ashley says,” I love having a little girl. Someone that needs you, loves you and wakes up in the morning with a smile when she sees you are there. It’s truly the best feeling. Before I had Ellie I would always hear that it was the best and hardest thing you could go through. Hearing that you think… That kind of sounds terrifying. But, once I had Ellie, I finally understood what that meant.”

It can be hard though because, “Your life is changed forever.  You are responsible for a little human. It’s something that you are learning as you go and there isn’t a pamphlet to get you through. But, for every hard time there are five amazing times… And that’s what I love.”

In the midst of baby bliss, Ashley’s doctor called her again… It was time to do something about the abnormal cells in her body… Again, she prayed and hoped for the best…

Ellie4After a biopsy, several tests and a minor surgery… Her husband, Jared, explained that it was much worse than the doctor expected and that parts of her cervix were now harmful to her health. They would now have to test what was taken from her in surgery… And, if positive, which the doctor was certain it would be, Ashley would need more surgery… The situation was just much worse than anticipated…

However, after waiting a few days, they received a call saying that the test results came back negative…

Ashley said, “You could really hear in the doctor’s voice the shock and excitement that she felt because I think she really believed it was positive. She told me that I was finished with everything and that I didn’t need anymore surgery. I couldn’t believe this but at the same time I don’t think I realized how bad it was. In my head I down played it because once you tell someone you could have cancer they think the worst. I believe those negative results was God saying, ‘I’m not done with you yet.’ And I’m so grateful for that.”

During the entire process Ashley did have a little anxiety… But only because she has seen firsthand what cancer does to a person and family… Her sister passed away from cancer, leaving her own little girl behind…

But, Ashley would not receive this for her life or the life of her child’s… She says, “In some moments I became sad thinking of my sister and realizing that I never wanted to leave Ellie. I never wanted her to have to grow up without me and I prayed extra hard that that wasn’t in God’s plan.”

She believes God placed Ellie in her life for more reason than one… Because, “If I never became pregnant, I would still be stubborn and may of never found out what was going on until it was too late. So she is a blessing in a unique way.”

Ellie3Now, Ashley and Jared are able to experience the milestones of Ellie’s growth, but without the fear of a disease in the way… They enjoy watching her grow and learn every week… It’s like there’s “always something new.”

One thing new to her is the perspective she has about God’s love. “Ellie could have come out with three eyes, looking like an alien, but I would have still loved her because she was a part of me. I would do anything for her.”

She also hopes Ellie knows God…  And that, “God works through her to do whatever she has a passion for. It’s all I can hope in this terrifying world we now live in. But, as long as I can teach her to love God, and look at all things through the other persons eyes, I believe she will be great at whatever she does.”

Personally, I believe she and Jared will do just that… Because, since I’ve known Jared, He’s always wanted to be a father… And I believe his love for Ellie will completely reflect Father God’s heart.

Ashley says, “Seeing a man you love be absolutely smitten with his little girl is special. Right after I had her, I was still recovering and couldn’t do as much as I wanted. He was right there doing everything he could to help. That made me appreciate him more and realize how grateful I am to have him.”

And so… For Ashley, “Being Ellies mom is the best. She is the happiest little baby, and I love her more than pickles and Alabama Football!”

Thanks of sharing your story Ashley!

-Amanda

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